5 Lessons From My New “Voice Quieting” Exercise
It’s not Crossfit. But I want to talk about it like how someone who does Crossfit brings it up in conversation all the time.
Do you know that feeling when you wake up of not knowing precisely what needs to be done but you know it’s everything.
You know it needed to be done yesterday, and you know, for no reason, you’re inadequate.
By the time you get to the last thought your throat has already constricted enough that any sort of oxygen flow has completely stopped and you are paralyzed in bed.
You can’t move.
Great, yet another thing you must do but have already failed at.
Your heart beats faster. Perhaps this is the morning it finally bursts out of your chest? That would be an accomplishment. Finally, one.
I’ve been trying to escape these thoughts since 2005.
I thought being happier would change my state of mind. When I first tried being happy, I thought happy looked the way society said happy looked:
- 2.5 kids
- a house with a white picket fence
- and my MRS.