I can’t get no satisfaction.

Because I won’t let myself. But the times they are a-changing.

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We’ve all been looking for that “something” that gives our lives a spark for a long time.

I used to think I needed love.

Then I thought I needed passion.

Then I thought I needed purpose.

Then I thought I needed to be perfect.

One week I thought I needed Paris.

As I searched for apartments and made calculations for what my living expenses would be, I paused and asked myself:

What if you were just satisfied?

I left the US in 2019 on a mission.

I knew absolutely nothing about myself. I was uncomfortable in my skin, in my head, and I completely lacked any qualities that I deemed interesting. The only thing I did was drink in mass quantities, question my worth, and worry. I did these three things very well, but they also made my life intolerable. My mission was to find whatever it was that made my life worth living.

A month into my global travel, I found France (or when France found me). Not just France, the South of France. I knew it was meant to be. Visually, the South of France is one of the most perfect places on the planet. I found Frontignan, Agde, and…