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Living The Dream
4 min readAug 16, 2021
Just because it checks the boxes doesn’t mean it feels like a dream.
On paper, my life looks more than comfortable. In 2016, I fantasized about having this life. What’s happening now ticks the boxes of “dream.”
- I’m financially stable.
- I have a job that challenges me in an industry that is “cool.”
- I live in France.
- I go to my French yoga studio 4 times a week.
- I go to the beach almost every weekend.
- I have invested in a self-wellness squad that I see and consult with regularly.
- I’m not burdened by living above my means because the cost of living is so high. $400 a month health insurance. Where I live, without health insurance, I pay less than 60 USD to go to the doctor to get all the things checked and probed and tested.
- I don’t drink alcohol.
Myself in 2016 didn’t know I could live this way. In 2016, I didn’t know that living the “dream life” on paper isn’t living the “dream life” in reality.
In reality, I’m have a very hard, and questionably long “season”.
- My anxiety and depression have been a roller coaster for the last 18 months.
- I don’t speak to a portion of my family who, at one time, were my security…