My Journey Out of Being Co-dependent

How a song by ZEZE in a restaurant reminded me of my co-dependent journey.

I was sitting at a table in a pretty posh restaurant in Delhi under the pretenses that it was a part of a co-working cohort a few weeks ago. It was indeed a part of a cohort, but it was so much more than that. It was sexy. neon. made for the ‘Gram. Just as I was deciding that I was a little too thirty-sober-something to be there, the lyrics of ZEZE filled the room.

“When your well run dry, you know you need me for it.”

I’ve known I’ve needed things before. It was always the case, particularly as a twenty-something, that what I needed was not what I thought I needed. It was what I wanted. Each time was because my emotional well was dry. (ZEZE, you are so wise.)

I was thirsty for something more it and wanted it to be quenched by something or someone. Not only did I not know how to satisfy it on my own, but I also didn’t even consider it an option. There was a drought, and my well was empty for over a decade. I spent all of 2019 working to fix this. You could say, I performed a year-long rain…