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Why Your Self Help Isn’t Helping
What questions I asked myself to get out of the self help vortex.
Had I known to ask myself these questions, I would have made a lot of choices differently.
In 2016 I found myself in a predicament.
Not just one, I was in many. I was a couple of years into a relationship that, besides the sex, was tumultuous and unsatisfying. My anxiety and depression were like 10000-pound weights crashing down on me. And, not very surprisingly, I was destructive. Not just self-destructive, I mean destructive. Holes in the wall kind. Normally, these holes came from a drunken rage. The straw that broke the camels back, aka the hole that I punched in the wall soberly, ended with me on my knees praying to make something drastic happen so that I could change the way I was living.
I prayed this almost every single day for 2 years. Alongside the prayer, I became an evangelist for the self-help section on any literal or virtual shelf. I started seeing a therapist. I started a journaling practice. I went all “high vibes only.” I did all the things that Pinterest says you should do to change your life.